Friday, September 12, 2008

Go away........







Very quietly I take my leave As quietly as I came here;


Quietly I wave good-bye To the rosy clouds in the western sky.


The golden willows by the riverside Are young brides in the setting sun;


Their reflections on the shimmering waves Always linger in the depth of my heart.


The floatingheart growing in the sludge Sways leisurely under the water;


In the gentle waves of Cambridge I would be a water plant!


That pool under the shade of elm trees Holds not water but the rainbow from the sky;


Shattered to pieces among the duckweeds Is the sediment of a rainbow-like dream?


To seek a dream?Just to pole a boat upstream To where the green grass is more verdant;


Or to have the boat fully loaded with starlight And sing aloud in the splendour of starlight.


But I cannot sing aloud Quietness is my farewell Even summer insects heep silence for me Silent is Cambridge tonight!Very quietly I take my leave As quietly as I came here;


Gently I flick my sleeves Not even a wisp of cloud will I bring away.






轻轻的我走了, 正如我轻轻的来;


我轻轻的招手,作别西天的云彩。


那河畔的金柳,是夕阳中的新娘;


波光里的艳影,在我的心头荡漾。


软泥上的青荇,油油的在水底招摇;


在康河的柔波里,我甘心做一条水草. 那榆荫下的一潭,不是清泉,是天上虹,揉碎在浮藻间,沉淀着彩虹似的梦。


寻梦?


撑一支长篙,向青草更青处漫溯,满载一船星辉,在星辉斑斓里放歌.


但我不能放歌,悄悄是别离的笙箫;


夏虫也为我沉默,沉默是今晚的康桥!


悄悄的我走了,正如我悄悄的来;


我挥一挥衣袖,不带走一片云彩!

〖舍得〗


〖舍得〗


有时候我喜欢压抑自己。这不是优点。我清楚的知晓,但,从未打算更改。执拗且肯承担一切孤单,空洞岁月,记忆填满。就这样,沉默,不对生活就范。 人,很多时候,都容易感到寂寞,然后需要一个人、一声问候,默默走。寂寞的时候,有个手可以紧握,是温暖的事情。即使没有言语,指尖的温度可以感应,冬天不冷,心有暖意。夏天不热,心有舒意。 对于时间,爱,是过于奢侈的事情。我不舍得贪婪。所以总是刻意地提醒自己,不要不留余地的全部将整个世界都放进去,若塌了,怎么收拾残局? 走过一些岁月,人就会变得越来越现实,谁也是不肯先全军覆没的。我们有个怀抱,彼此取暖,然后,小心翼翼的共同打造幸福,就是,就是,就是不敢去计较谁深谁浅。不是安于现状,是太美丽的陶瓷,没有了舍弃的勇气,所以,也就只能呵护着,却又不敢太费力气。 只是,如果有些故事,我们知道结局,还敢不敢在过程中,挣扎着继续?!?! 敢不敢呢?! 对未来一无所知,所以被深深吸引,而且不可遏止。不是敢不敢,是还能不能自主脱身。无能为力。 …… 然后,突然有了跳跃的勇气。情绪腾空而起,想要飞跃这艰难,做到了!俯瞰过往,曾经多么无谓地纠缠于情感,原来可以一刀两断。 知道爱情短暂。之前是知道的呀!可是,还不是免不了迂留在一处情绪不肯走。终于,颠覆了所有期盼,决绝转身。没有任何动作,只是心,做了告别。我知道我不会再和从前继续,我知道,我的未来,早就知道。今天,才,有勇气。撕碎海市蜃楼般不真实的美丽。从睡梦中清醒过来,原来不该再去怀念从前!
打破美丽的东西,是心疼的事情。 当你知道,这种美丽在时光中根本不会兑现时,心就好受些。 然后舍得。

有谁想当坏人 ... !!?



我不想当坏人。。。。




虽然我每天在上课时,都幻想自己是杀手什么的,也有想当杀手或者是特务的白痴梦。
可是我厌烦了,那纯粹是梦。。。
你每每都当好人
我每每都当坏人
是我,我也想当好人
我知道自己容易伤人,可是我真的不是有意的
我只是贪玩,爱闹
就这样,每次都衰衰地把别人惹火了
我不想这样的
我够自责了,即使你们没怪我
每次自己做错事,当坏人的时候
好人就会出现
可是我不是说你们假好人
只是不要在我面前这样那样的
这样我会很伤
说说别人不在乎你的感受
你是好人嘛
可是不在乎我的感受
竟然是好人中的好人的你

拜托
留一次机会给我好吗?
我也想当好人
不想当坏人了...

Sunday, August 31, 2008

~爱~...造成的伤痛

~爱~...造成的伤痛
我沈默 不代表我不痛 我不痛 眼泪就不会流 总是安静承受 安静忍受 安静看你走 我说你 很适合当好朋友 你说我 总是会听你说 我说别太难过 保持联络 有空的时候 把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我 最痛是当时微笑送你走 等到你转身後 眼泪也不敢流 只怕你偶然还会回过头 把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我 放开手是我最後的温柔 如果你能飞得 快乐自由 这疼痛 并不算 什麽 想挽留 却为什麽点头 我不懂 连我都不懂我 如果说的太少 爱的太多 有谁能够懂 把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我 最痛是当时微笑送你走 等到你转身後 眼泪也不敢流 只怕你偶然还会回过头 把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我 放开手是我最後的温柔 如果你能飞得 快乐自由 这疼痛 并不算 什麽 千言万语拥挤我的宇宙 让我震耳欲聋 喔喔 有多少爱 就有多少 沈默的疼痛 变疼爱 。。。

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Nothing was Ugly ...


UgLy


Everyone in the apartment complex knew who "Ugly" was. Ugly was the resident tomcat that loved three things in this world: fighting, eating garbage, and, shall we say, love. The combination of these things, combined with a life spent outside, had their effect on Ugly. To start, Ugly had only one eye. And, where the other eye should have been, a gaping hole. He was also missing his ear on the same side. His left foot appeared to have been badly broken at one time, and had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner. His tail had long ago been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would constantly jerk and twitch. Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby, striped-type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, even his shoulders, with thick, yellowing scabs. Every time someone saw Ugly, there was the same reaction. "That's one UGLY cat!! " All the children were warned not to touch him. The adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down, squirted him when he tried to come in their homes, or shut his paws in the door when he would not leave. Ugly always had the same reaction. If you turned the hose on him, he would stand there, getting soaked until you gave up and quit. If you threw things at him, he would curl his lanky body around feet in forgiveness. Whenever he spied children, he would come running, meowing frantically. He would bump his head against their hands, begging for their love. If you ever picked him up, he would immediately begin suckling on your shirt, earrings, or whatever he could reach or find.One day, Ugly shared his love with the neighbor's huskies. They did not respond kindly, and Ugly was badly mauled. From my apartment I could hear his screams, and I tried to rush to his aid. By the time I got to where he was laying, it was apparent Ugly's sad life was almost at an end. Ugly laid in a wet circle, his back legs and lower back twisted grossly out of shape, a gaping tear in the white strip of fur that ran down his front. As I picked him up and tried to carry him home, I could hear him wheezing and gasping, and could feel him struggling. It must be hurting him terribly, I thought. Then I felt a familiar tugging, sucking sensation on my ear. Ugly, in so much pain, suffering, and obviously dying, was trying to suckle my ear. I pulled him closer to me, and he bumped the palm of my hand with his head, then he turned his one golden eye towards me, and I could hear the distinct sound of purring. Even in the greatest of pain, that ugly, battled-scarred cat was asking only for a little affection, perhaps some compassion. At that moment I thought Ugly was the most beautiful, loving creature I had ever seen. Never once did he try to bite or scratch me, or even try to get away from me, or struggle in any way. Ugly just looked up at me, completely trusting in me to relieve his pain. But he died in my arms before I could even get inside. I sat down and held him for a long time afterwards, thinking about how one scarred, deformed little stray could so alter my opinion about what it means to have true pureness of spirit, to love so totally and truly. Ugly taught me more about giving and compassion than a thousand books, lectures, or talk show specials ever could, and for that I will always be thankful. Ugly had been scarred on the outside, but I was scarred on the inside, and it was time for me to move on and learn to love truly and deeply. To give my total to those I cared for. Many people want to be richer, more successful, well liked, and beautiful. But for me, I will always try to be "Ugly

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Damn it


Bad news for D3viL ...



Yesterday night D3viL 收到了一件坏消息...那就是D3viL kena to go NS.... haiz so sad ....= ='' 为什么会是我???真不明白wat the fuck nw ??! ... shit ...shit ...shit ...

Damn it .... ssibal ... hw come like tat ??? I dun like it , i hate it ... I dun think i'll kena NS ... Y, i'll kena it ... y y y ??? Who can tell me ...??! & Who can help me .... wat can i do nw ??? so shit ...

Y, Malaysian girls need to go NS ??? Others country only guys go ... Y, our country girls oso wan go NS ...??? who can tell me the reason ...???D3viL feel so upset ....

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Devil be injured again


D3viL 再次伤了脊椎骨

在去年我的脊椎骨已经受伤了,起因是我和一般的朋友去玩直排轮弄伤的。刚开始玩时,我是乎一直跌倒,可能是那时候跌伤的吧 ... !!?我自己也不大清楚 。。。过了不久的某一天我睡醒时我觉得我的背很痛,痛得我起不了身。那时我以为自己得了癌症,因为 D3viL 的妈妈患上遗传的癌症, 结果我以为自己和妈妈一样患上遗传的癌症 ... D3viL 因为不想让爸爸担心,结果没有告诉任何人!!?
当时的我很伤心,不知如何是好?我没有向朋友或其他人诉说心事的习惯,我总是把它们收在心里从不告诉任何人。我很烦恼,很痛苦,我想找个人听我说心事,可是我又不想让他们担心!我很矛盾,不知道自己该怎么办?最后我只好上网找一些关于脊椎疼痛的原因和治疗的方法。后来发现自己没有得癌症。。。!!? 而是伤到脊椎骨,所以每当我站直的时候或弯腰的时候都会觉得很痛。。。每次感觉到痛的时候,我就必须伪装,因为我不想让我家人发觉我不对劲。我真得很痛苦,很难受,但我能怎么办呢??!
我的脊椎就这样痛了很久很久。有一阵子,D3viL突然觉得不痛了,我以为好了。。。我很开心!!?~.~ 可是我只有短暂的快乐,为什么呢?原因是wednesday的时候,我又一位朋友很爱向人撒娇,但她从不承认自己向人撒娇。这天我在学校楼梯遇见她。。。!!?她突然撒娇起来,我告诉他别向我撒娇,因为我很讨厌人家撒娇。她很生气地骂了起来,她说:“我最讨厌人家说我喜欢撒娇,我从来不会向别人撒娇的”!!?我一边上楼梯一边听她骂,而她就走在我的后面。结果她很生气的骂完后,她就拿起水罐打向我的背,刚巧我走上楼梯,她的水罐很准确的打中了我承经受上的位子。。。我的脊椎就这样再次受伤了。。。
这几天我很辛苦,因为脊椎的疼痛比上一次来得更痛。。。为什么不开心的事总是发生在我身上,我到底做错了什么??? 有时我总觉得死去比活着好 。。。 我有想过就这样结束了17年的生命!!?可是我做不到,我还有很多事情等着我去完成。。。可能当我完成了这些事情后,我会结束了我的生命。。。!!?当个恶魔也好,当个幽魂也好,我就是不想当人类。。。!!?




在次生病的D3viL 希望自己消失在这世界上或从来不承存在过 。。。!!?
从这一刻开始,你们就把D3viL 忘了吧!!?
当做她已经离开了人间,到一个属于她存在的黑暗小岛上去了。。。

Monday, July 21, 2008

The person who I Hate n Love ....


She is my Mom.....
Mom, you're a wonderful mother,
So gentle, yet so strong.
The many ways you show you careAlways make me feel I belong.
You're patient when I'm foolish;
You give guidance when I ask;
It seems you can do most anything;
You're the master of every task.
You're a dependable source of comfort;
You're my cushion when I fall.
You help in times of trouble;
You support me whenever I call.
I love you more than I can express;
You have my total respect.
If I had my choice of mothers,
You'd be the one I'd select!
Mom, i knw u love sis more than me, sometimes i'll very hate, but i still wan to let u knw... although u not lov3 much than sis , I also lov3 u forever mom .... cause u r my lovely mom ....

Friday, July 18, 2008

SicK DeviL


D3viL was sick .... t0day
今天*D3viL* 生病了... 她最讨厌生病时的自己 ... !!? 在以前,她并不会讨厌生病时的自己,原因是她有妈妈的照顾。D3viL认为生病时,在妈妈的细心照顾下很快就会康复是很幸福的事。
直到三年前,D3vil的妈妈因抗拒不了病魔,而离开了D3viL那一刻开始,她就不许自己生病。生病是一件很痛苦的事,如果D3viL生病了,她再也无法得到妈妈无微不至的照顾了,所以当D3viL生病时,她就必须自己照顾自己了...!!?
可是D3viL讨厌的那一刻又来了,今天早上当她要去上课的时候,胃痛突然复发,痛得让她无法上学去... 。其实,昨天在她从学校回来时,已经感觉到胃一直很不舒服了,可是D3viL没去理会它。她一直在忙着做班上壁报的事,因为有很多壁报的东西还没弄好,而且壁报的截止日期就在今天。所以D3viL就拼了命的在弄壁报的东西,没去理会她的胃... 结果胃痛就这样复发了...。
D3viL : 为什么 ? 为什么 ? 我很讨厌很讨厌生病的自己,一旦生病了我什么事情都做不好 ... 就像
今天一样不能去学校把剩下一些还没完成的壁报完成 .....
讨厌 ...
讨厌 ...
讨厌 ...
讨厌 ... !!?
I Hate U

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Scary ...




A young Lady .....


2 years ago, there was a young lady whothought she was the happiest womanever. She had a good boyfriend, a job whichbought her steady income, trustworthyfriends and caring parents. One day,She realized that her boyfriend wasunfaithful to her and had another womanoutside. She ran home crying to findthat her house had caught on fire. Herparents were dead. The following week,she went to her office to find out thather company was closed down.

She counted on her friends, she had 3 really goodfriends, Amanda, Summer and Adeline. When she called Amanda, she found thatAmanda had changed her house numberwithout informing her. Then she calledSummer, she found out that Summer hadimmigrated. When she called Adeline,her crying husband told her that Adelinemet a fatal car accident yesterday. Thisunlucky girls name is Cherie. Shekilled herself, without a penny to her name.
Now, seeks for revenge. She is standing beside you now.

Real Ghost story....


轻轻地拍你肩膀

故事发生在一对新婚夫妇身上。丈夫是一名营业部主任,太太是一位会计不职员。由于新婚开支大所以租了一间较残旧的廉价公寓作为两人的小天地。
已有六十几年历史的公寓未经两人装修下入住。由于两人的工作量太多所以通常都会把剩余的作业带回家赶。两人约定了自己的工作岗位。那便是太太会在房内的书台而丈夫则是在客厅。丈夫选择了在电视机前的厅桌也就是吊风扇下。他都会打开手提电脑做务业至深夜。
丈夫连续几天在家赶公司的务夜。这一晚的大约十一点也正是他太太正在熟睡的时刻。他突然感有人碰他右边的肩膀。他当时立刻回头往但他只看见锁上的房门与摆设在房门左则的白色花瓶与绿色假草。连续了几天都在大约十一点也就是他几乎忙完的时刻都会感觉到有人轻轻的碰他的右边肩膀,还是每隔大约十分钟就会感觉到有人轻轻碰他的右边肩膀。
当他与妻子商量这件事时妻子认为他是工作压力太大因此太太提议调换工作岗位。就是妻子在客厅做自己剩余的务业而先生在房内的书桌。妻子也是选择的与先生同样的位子电视机前的厅桌也就是吊风扇下,妻子还添加了一个褐色的垫枕。在手提电脑旁还放了一杯咖啡,杯子是新婚时买的龙凤杯。
当晚下着雨,到了大约十一点首先是冷风一阵。当妻子拿起咖啡杯准备要喝时突然感觉右边的肩膀像是被人轻轻拍了一下。手中的咖啡杯因她被惊吓而倒掉。回头一望,看见房内正在赶工事的丈夫。她心里有少少害怕,她连忙抹掉刚倒掉的咖啡,向房内的先生微笑,继续自己的工作。过了一阵子微微冷风再一阵,立刻右边的肩膀又被人轻轻拍了一下。她立刻跑进房内紧紧抱着丈夫。语气像是被吓坏般"我也感觉到我的右边肩膀被人拍呀"。"来!来!来!..明天才继续工作吧!先去睡觉"丈夫冷静的说。
明天一大早因两人不甘心之下就去找了屋主问个究竟。当屋主也不隐瞒的告诉他们后他们更是感到愕然。
原来前房客因欠下巨债而在客厅的吊风扇上吊自尽。而那碰到他们肩膀的是前房客的脚尖,恐怖是死亡时间是在晚上大约十一点。实在让人毛骨悚然。